alone with myself, pretending she’s beside me. alone with myself, I dance with her till sunrise. alone with myself, I feel her arms around me, and when I can’t see she is the light that finds me.

in the night, the water shines like silver. all the stars are blurry up the cold river. yet somehow through the blur they sing forgive her. in the darkness, the trees are full of starlight. and all I see is she and me forever and forever.

and I know, it’s only in my dreams. that I am just dreaming to myself and am not with her. and all though I know that she is hurt, still I say, there’s a way for us.

I L̶o̶v̶e̶ Her.

but when I wake up from the dream, she is gone. the night is just a night. the stars are just stars. the river is just a river. alone with myself, my world has changed. the stars are dead, the nights are dark, the halls are filled with strangers.

I L̶o̶v̶e̶ her.

but every minute I am learning. all these nights, i’ve only been pretending. with me gone, her nights will go on happy. nights full of stars that are shining, that I will never feel.

I L̶o̶v̶e̶ her.